Subject: Harriet
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Met a death's-head woman in the street. Harriet for dinner. In dread of a child!
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Harriet arrived with Lillan; told me she was almost killed by a falling chimney breast at home on 30 Biblioteksgatan.
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Harriet, I and Lillan were going to Djurgården. When Harriet was waiting for the carriage outside her front door with Lillan, she saw two horses' heads approaching around the corner: "Look, that's our carriage!" she said. The horses arrived, and - were pulling a hearse. - Are these warnings?
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The colour violet persecutes me outside. Violet small squares in my study a floor up; a dark violet lily grew in the yard; violet wallpaper in the salon; (is it sorrow and death?); found a wig with a violet rosette; violet curtains in my room; violet paper as table runner; then I received violet braces from Harriet.
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Harriet, Lillan and I had dinner together at Lidingöbro; drove home by way of Djurgården.
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A glorious morning; H-t was with me all forenoon, gentle, loving, like flowers in my mouth! Now I believe that she is free, and that we are united! But no, she disappeared in the evening, when Axel came; and although I received a summons to go to bed at 10 o'clock, she was not there to meet me. Slept, and experienced faithlessness; had bad dreams but was left in peace until morning when she sought me with passion, but without love. I responded x x x.
